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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Reminders of Home in the Mesata of Spain

When I walked out of the Albergue this morning, the Romansque Church was bathed in warm hues of pink, red, and blue as the sun began to rise and the roosters were crowing in the distance.  As I walked out of town, those same colors cast their mystical properties to the mountains in the far off distance. "Awake lyre and harp, together we will awake the dawn."

After two weeks o walking, just as the newness of the pilgrimage begins to wane and some homesickness sets in, I had reminders of my homes in Texas, Oklahoma, and DeKalb, Il. in the stark barreness of this terrain as it prepares for its winter hibernation.  As I walked into Formista yesterday two tumbleweeds greeted me.  Not something seen in Austin everyday, yet it still reminded me of my deep (1829) Texas roots.  The terrain for the last day and a half has been as flatter than ten mile flats west of Norman if that is possible.  And, the wind has been blowing off the plain just like Oklahoma.  I even saw a hawk (or some similar bird) doing lazy circles in the sky. Fortunately no rain.  Unfortunately, my honey lamb is back in Norman.  And, DeKalb.  For much of yesterday, as I watched the farmers plow their fields, I was reminded of growing up in DeKalb.  (As an aside, I don´t think I´ve seen a farm house since I have been here. The farmer´s live in the villages, driving their tractors into the villages and at times parking them in front of their town houses.)  While walking Formista yesterday, I saw a man - a local farmer I think - wearing a DeKalb Ag hat.  My first attempt to communicate with him failed as he thought I was accusing him of stealing my hat.  Finally I got through, and he understood that I had worked for DeKalb Ag as a teenager detassling corn.

Speaking of home, and just so that you don´t think I have lost my sense of priority, I still know what is really sacred in the fall.  Toward that end, does anyone know where I can find a place to watch Texas play OU and Notre Dame play USC this Saturday in Leon, Spain?

Our Lady of Victory, pray for us!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Walking in a Slow Manner

I´d like to say I am walking in a relaxed manner (the title of Joyce Rupp´s book on the Camino) but truth be told, I´m just slow.  (This is actually the reason I left Hogan and Hartson and D.C. law practice - I got stampeded everyday on the Metro escalators)  I rarely pass people on the Camino, but many pass me.  I did pass a 70 year old guy today, but I won´t tell you how many 60 and 70 somethings have passed me these past two weeks.  I have a pace that I´m comfortable with so I don´t worry at all about how fast others are going.  This is much easier when you are walking alone.


The other day as I was stumbling over pilgrims trying to get packed in the morning in one of the more crowded albergues (the bunkbeds were spaced less than a foot a part and there wasn´t much other space in the room), I found myself grumbling under my brief at the crowded conditions.  And, then I realized that I had been one of the last in the night before, and I would have had no bed except for the crowded conditions.

For three days we have been walking the mesata.  For two and a half we haven´t been anywhere near a major highway (major meaning similar to our state highways not interstates).  This morning I got to see the sun rise twice.  Once from the mountain I climbed just before sun up and the second as the sun dispelled the shadows as I came down that mountain.  The terrain was pretty much the same - mesata, mesata, mesata with its fields ploughed for the fall.  I did enjoy the barren starkness of the terrain.  But, I also got three surprise breaks during the day.  The first was a picnic area in the middle of know where staffed by two guys with fruit and coffee, seeking only donations.  They were probably shrewd business guys because I suspect they made more taking donations than they would have if they sold their goods.  The second surprise was a walk over a Romanesque bridge and then along a tree covered lane by the river.  And, the third was a 4K walk alond an irrigation canal.

The town I am in now, Fromista has a beautifully preserved Romanesque church built in 1066.  The modern church in town, a Gothic structure, was built in the 15th Century.

Today, I offered the day for our law students.  Tomorrow, I offer the day for a particular person and all those mourning (or anticipating mourning) the loss of a loved one.  One Wednesday, I´ll offer the day for all lawyers that, no matter their practice area, they may always seek justice and act with mercy.  On Thursday, in honor of my son´s 27th birthday, I´ll offer the day for the growth of sustainable agriculture and all the benefits that accrue from that.  On Friday, my day will be offered for all immigrants, refugees, migrants, and displaced persons in the world that they might know the peace of a secure home.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Bathed in God´s Love

Everyone on the Camino, even those walking for adventure, a cheap vacation, or some vague and abstract spiritual reason have an interior journey in addition to the exterior one.  I have blogged about some of the highlights of the exterior journey and my reaction to them.  I haven´t blogged about the interior journey because -well - it is just that, interior.  I hazard this one blog post on the interior journey because I sense that it might resonate with some of our readers. 

For the past several days a reality has been imposing itself on me.  The question that pressed on my mind was ¨what keeps me from responding completely to God´s all embracing love?¨  I thought this was an odd question because the answer seemed obvious - my selfishness, my disordered passions and desires, in short my sinfullness kept me from falling completely and madly in love with Love Himself.  But, a different answer came, and it seems to correspond with my reality.  It is not so much my selfishness, my disordered passions and desires, my sin that keep me from God.  Instead, it is my unwillingness to come to God in my brokeness, in my proverty, with my selfishness and disordered passions and desires that only He can heal.  I reflected on the story of Adam and Eve in the garden - after they ate of the forbidden fruit, they hid from God in their naked shame. 

How often do I foolishly try to hide from God in my shame and guilt when this is precisely the time I ought to run to Him.  After all, God became one of us and experienced our poverty.  As He hung on the cross naked and broken, He beckoned all of us to embrace our weakness and come to Him that He might heal that weakness in His time, not mine.  I don´t have to dress myself up for God, I should come as I am - a broken, impoverished, naked human being - someone who cannot offer God praise until He opens my lips. (Psalm 51)  This I think is the Little Way taught by that great doctor Therese whose memorial we observed at the beginning of the month. 

Enough of the public broadcast of the interior journey.  I offered my walk on Thursday, Oct. 8 for the healing of ideological divisions within the Church, Friday, Oct. 9 for an increase in solid vocations to marriage (and Family), the priesthood, and religiousn life, Saturday, Oct. 10 for a special young man and all others, whether civilian or military, traumatized in body and soul by the wages of war, and Sunday, Oct. 11 for the healing of all troubled marriages.  I´ll offer my walking tomorrow, Monday, Oct. 12 for all of our law students.

Camino Update

I am now two days out of Burgos and deep in the Mesata (high plains might be a good description).  If you like numbers, I have walked roughly 210 miles since starting in St. Jean Pied de Port, France on Sept. 29.  And, I have 290 miles until Santiago, which I hope to reach on Oct. 31, with a rest day in Leon next Sunday. The Mesata, especially in the fall, speaks of solitude  with villages far and few between the poor soils ploughed after the harvest.  The town I stayed in last night has a resident population of 100. I had a wonderful dinner with my Polish friend Kristof before mass.  This morning I met a guy who graduated from George Mason´s law school this year and is still awaiting his Virginia bar results.  He is also a Colorado Buffs fan but wouldn´t bet me on the outcome of the Texas-Colorado game. 

One reader asked how my body is holding up.  I guess they are worried about a 49 year old fat guy walking the equivalent of I-35 from the Oklahoma border to the Texas border.  Well, my chances of getting a heart attack would be much greater staying home and watching Notre Dame finish football games this season than walking 20-40 kilometers a day across Spain.  Seriously, I have been very fortunate.  The first week I had terrible chafing, I went to the Farmacia, got some cream, and am doing much better.  I have had two blisters (one self-inflicted when I hit the back of my bare heel on a step), but they haven´t bothered me.  My biggest problem of late is soreness/throbbing/trauma in my feet during the last 5 or 10 K a day.  Only the Chicago Marathon caused such pain.  Half-marathons are like a walk in the park compared to this.  But, once again, on the advice of my wife and son who have both done the Camino, I went to the Farmacia, got some creme and the feet have been much better since.  Please continue to keep me in your prayers.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Serving Garlic soup for over 850 years: Further Reflections from the Camino

When I last posted, I had finished a hard day in the rain.  It rained for much of yesterday also, but I was doing much better.  9 and a half hours of sleep will do that.  I was sleeping in an Albergue recommended by my son, Christopher, and his wife, Mary, in Belorado next to the Church.  This year, it is being run by Swiss friends of the Camino.  My Swiss host came in at 7:30 Thursday morning to tell me it was past time to get up.  The Austrian priest two beds down was sitting on the bed so I thought I wasn´t the only late sleeper.  But, in reality, the priest (who will celebrate 50 years of priesthood in 2011) was on his way out the door.

After a breakfast of bread and jam provided by our hosts, I headed out into the rain.  As usual, I enjoyed the solitude.  As with the previous day, we were walking through rolling hills of barley, wheat, and potato - all harvested. The first half of the day was a gentle climb from 775 meters to 950 meters.  The rest of the day was spent walking through pine and oak mountain forests as we climbed steeply from 950 meters to 1150 meters.

I spent the night last night in San Juan de Ortega, a small village built around an Augustinian monastary founded by San Juan in 1150 for the purposes of hosting pilgrims in this isolated badland area just west of Burgos where bandits would prey on pilgrim. Following a tradition dating back to 1150, I ate the wonderful garlic soup provided by my hosts after mass.  After dinner, the Austrian priest, two Norwegians, and I had a glass of wine before turning in around 9pm.

This morning the whether turned cooler, and I put in long pants, long sleeves, and an outer layer for the first time.  After a 25K walk, I am now in Burgos, staying next to its magnificent cathedral.  More later...  I am off to explore the city. 

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

I spoke to quickly - Post 2 for today from the Camino

This morning I wrote:  "a night´s rest has rejuvenated me and I am ready for a short 24K today."  The early morning was glorious with the moon full or near full and the sun coming up as I left Santo Domingo de la Calzada (named for an 11th century saint who did much to improve the road to Santiago for pilgrims -many of the roads and bridges were built under his direction).  With only 24 kilometers, I thought I´d take it slow, stopping in every village along the way.  I was probably only 1K. out of town when my body (espeically my feet) told me I´d need to take it slow whether I wanted to or not.  

We have passed through the wine region of La Rioja and arrived in Castilla y Leon, which we will walk through during much of the rest of the journey.  As I walked this morning, the the sky started to look threatening, but I wasn´t worried, the sky had bluffed two days ago.  But not today.  For much of the day there was a strong headwind (I´d estimate sustained winds in excess of 25mph and as a runner in Oklahoma, I am pretty good at estimating winds) and then the skys opened up with a steady rain.  I gave my poncho a try and within an hour or so, it was in tatters because of the wind, I guess.

In short, it wasn´t a fun or easy day.  The sun did come out when I arrived at my destination Belorado where I am staying at the parish albergue suggested by my son Christopher and his wife Mary who stayed here two months ago.  This year, the parish (Santa Maria) albergue is being staffed by Swiss friends of the Camino who take two week shifts in Spain.

I am full of gratitude but my body is tired.  I have a rest day in Leon on Oct. 18 when my friends Bill and Mark join me for the last two weeks.  But, that is a long way away.  Please keep me in your prayers.

Finally, I sense I am being called to even more quiet on the Camino - at least for a time.  And, this seems to be confirmed by the externals.  I haven´t seen anyone from the group I walked with for the first day and a half since then.  For the past week, I have walked alone but spent the evenings with a cast of around 10 - I´d see some on some days and others on other days depending where people stayed.  Injury has kept some behind.  Other are on other paces - some faster, some slower. Of this group, the only one in Bolarado tonight is staying at a different Albergue.  So, it may be that my silence (except for blogging) continues on into the evening.

Reflections from the Camino

Francisco´s dinner party at the albergue was tremendous.  We orginally set the table for 5 - me Francisco, a young woman from the Czech Republic, a Basque, and an Italian.  He ended up feeding 9 and later others joined for after dinner wine.  Our French host led us in a  song before the Basque took over as our choirmaster.  We sang the night away - well until 10pm and lights out.  One of the guys I talked to at dinner is a doctor who is at a cross-roads in his practice.  He has offers in three countries.  He literally decided to make the Camino to clear his head (33 days of head clearing) when he met two pilgrims in an airport during a flight delay.  He didn´t even bother to go home. He called and made arrangements for his practice, bought his gear, and headed out, following the two he had met.

Yesterday was a challenging day.  Given my schedule, I needed to have one long day, and I had decided that I would attempt it on Tuesday.  The walk yesterday was supposed to be 38K but ended up more like 40k.  (More on the extra two later).  I was a bit nervous because I had to commit to 38K after 23K because there was no place to stay between those two points.  The day was marvelous.  I felt great despite not getting much sleep the night before and drinking too much wine.  The the rainbow (no rain) in the early morning sky seemed to promise a great day, and it was. 

After lunch in Najara - sitting on a bench by the river - I got lazy and instead of following the yellow arrows (my authority), I followed three pilgrims up the WRONG mountain, adding about 2K to my already long day.  I named the mountain, the Mount of Gratitude.  At the 23K mark, I was still feeling good and went on. It was a very solitary expereince because everyone I had talked to was staying at the place I just passed.  I walked for a long time not seeing another soul - just me and God.  A long uphill climb about 6K from my destination about killed me, but at the top to my surprise was a water font and concrete reclining chairs.  I took off my boots and rested a while.  During the last 4K, I was really dragging, but then two my surprise, I saw a coyote and we walked together - at a distance - for probably 500 meters.   He pepped me up for the final but.  and, then to my pleasent surprise, the town I stayed in last night was down hill from me.  What a relief.

Last night´s mass and pilgrim blessing were a joy although my feet ached.  It says something when I´d rather kneel than stand or even sit.  But, a night´s rest has rejuvenated me and I am ready for a short 24K today.

Yesterday, I offered the day for my parish, St. Mark, especially the RCIA program.  Today will be offered for St. Gregory´s University in Shawnee, Ok and the Benedictine monks who run it.  In addition, other prayer requests have come in through my wife or through facebook (I´m not checking work email) and I have plenty of time to pray for those requests.

Buen Camino en tu vida. 

Monday, October 5, 2009

Quick post from the Camino and its many blessings

Four quick notes.  First, I still get choked up when some of the Spaniards along the Camino greet me with a smile and a ¨Buen Camino¨(good camino/way/Journey) as I walk.  Second, I offered the day for a specific person and his family and all who are deeply wounded, suffering depression, doubt, hopelessness, or emptiness.  Third, I was sitting in the bar/cafe writing in my journal after arriving in Naverette (in La Riojo - left Naverre today) when two pilgrims who I have seen but don´t know their names gave me a glass of wine from the bottle they had just purchased.  A little later a Spanish pilgrim, Francisco, who speaks little English and who I have seen several days now, invited me to a dinner of his making at our Albergue.  I bought a bottle of Rioja tinto to bring to the party.  Fourth, and most amazing, as I was walking into Naverette, I saw a pilgrim with a duffel bag slung over his right shoulder.  I thought that seemed an odd way to carry your stuff.  He also seemed to be ailing from blisters by the way he walked.  He sat to drink some water in some shade and as I passed him, I asked if he was ok, noting his seeming problem walking.  It was then that I noticed that he only had a stump for a left arm (is that the reason for no backback?)  He then showed me his leg - it was an artificial leg - so I guess no blisters on his feet.  I don´t know where he started and whether he is going all the way to Santiago, but whether he is travelling for one day  or the whole way, he was an inspiration to me.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

A typical day on the Camino

In this post, I´ll give you a taste of the typical day of a pilgrim on the camino followed by my variations on the theme.  We sleep in pilgrim albergues (refugios or hostels).  The one in Roncesvalles (after our first day of walking) was one big room with bunk beds for 100 or so.  At this place (run by the Dutch confraternity of St. James) lights were turned off at 10pm and turned on at 6 am. The albergues are run by a parish, a country´s confraternity, an order of priests or nuns, the town, or private persons.  They  cost between a donation and about 8€.  Most of the alberques have several rooms with about 10 bunks each.

In the morning there are those who get up before the lights come on and attempt to pack their packs by flashlight.  We leave just before or just after daybreak and eat breakfast at a bar/cafe or food purchased the night before or in one case so far the albergue provided us breakfast.  After a day and a half of walking with others, I have walked alone with limited conversation during the day except to change pleasantry´s or to be checked on by others or to check on them.  By now, most of us have some ailment - blisters, bad knees, hurting shoulders, chafing.

I would guess that over half the people doing the Camino came alone ad walk alone.  Some walking groups have been formed here (like the one I had the first day and a half), there are some couples, some parents and adult children , cousins and friends.  Some have come just for a week or two and will complete the journey in future years.  Others as I mentioned have walked from their houses in Germany and France.  During the day, I´ll see people I know several times a day as I pass them or they pass me as we take different breaks.  Sometimes their will be a communal picnic of a small group or a small group will gather for coffee or lunch on they way.

For the first three days we walked in the Pyrannes through  fields, forests, and villages. (and Pamplona - the Univ. of Naverre is beatiful)  Two and a half of the last three days were through Oklahoma size mountains aand all of the last three days have been in vineyards, olive groves and ploughed fields.  The grapes, howevr, have yet to be harvested. 

When we arrive at our daily destination - sometimes exhausted - the routine is the same:  shower and wash clothes before anything else.  At a couple of alberques the folks running it offer medical treatment for feet - threading blisters bandaging people up.  After shower and clothes washing, some sit outside, some rest, some read, talk, journal, have a beer.  In the evening, most of us eat a local eater offering a pilgrims menu of an appetizer (salad, soupl, pasta), a main course (meat of some kind) wine, and desert for around 10€.  THe eating is done together and this is where most conversation takes place.  English, French and Spanish seem to be the most common languages at the table.  Many of the albergues have a kitchen and we have shared a common cooked meal, and I suspect we will do more of thesame.

As you might imagine we are a collection of characters on the Camin.  Maybe more on that latger.

An hour or two after I start walking, I usually stop take off my boots and pray morning prayer. Yesterday, I sat beside a Roman road just up from the Roman brdge we crossed, reminding me as I prayed that the pilgrims over the last 1000 years were traveling roads created by the Romans long before.  In the afternoon - usually when I am tired in the last 5K, I pray the rosary offer a decade for each of my four children and for my wife.  I have also started offering the day for a different people.  Yesterday it was my family of origin, today it was for a group of men and woman who suffer the terrible affliction of addiction.  I don´t know who or what will be pressed upon my heart tommorrow.

Finally, many towns we stay in offer mass at 8pm, and some - probabalbly less than half - take advantage.  After gtwo 30K days in a row, I am exhausted so I´ll sign off for now.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Live from the Camino

Last night I arrived in Larrasoana dead tired after two days and 32.6 miles in the mountains.  Every bone in my body ached.  But, it is a wonder what a good night of sleep (in a bunk room with 25 of your closest friends can do.  Todays walk through Pamplona, with its wonderful green spaces, beautiful medeival city, and impressive cathedral was much shorter - only 13.2 miles mostly still in the mountains, along winding wooded paths with the river always nearby. Tonight I am 3 miles past Pamplona in a small city with two 12th century churches. 

Yesterday about midday I felt called to leave my friends of the first day and a half and walk alone in silence.  Except for brief conversations as I pass people (or more likely they pass me), I haven´t talked with anyone while walking the past day and a half.  As my friend Roberto said, let the Camino guide you, don´t set the agenda for the Camino.  And, the Camino was-is guiding me into silence at least for a while.  I did have a brief conversation on the path with a Frenchwoman who had recently come back to the Church after a 34 year absence.  Last night, I had dinner with two Spanairds, a German who left his home in Germany on July 6 and started his Camino, and a Frenchmen who started his Camino three weeks ago in Le Puy, France.

On this blog we have had many discussions about authority.  This issue pressed upon me yesterday afternoon and today, as I thought about my authority on the Camino.  Yesterday afternoon, I was one or two kilometers from my destination when the Camino sign (a blue tile with a yellow shell) or a yellow arrow seemed to point in the direction of an industrial waste pit (think the making of Sauron´s army in the Lord of the Rings).  I followed the sign.  About 500 meters down, I started to question this authority - I was tired, I wanted to rest, and this didn´t seem to be the way.  Just then I looked down and saw a yellow arrow painted on an industrial pipe.  Soon I was out of this industrial wasteland and back in beatiful mountain woods.  Who knows where I would have ended up if I hadn´t followed the authority in the form of these signs.  If I wasn´t trusting the authority of the Camino, I would be desparately lost by now.

Happy feast of the Little Flower.  Instead of the traditional 8pm mass at the Church, I have heard that we have a priest pilgrim who will say mass at 6:30 in our courtyard.